Wednesday, August 31, 2016

It’s over

I am so glad that the interview is over!  Thank you all again for your prayers and encouraging words. It went smoothly, both gentlemen were nice and we had an hour of questions and answers and talking. When I got in the elevator to leave, my thought was ‘no’, and all the way home the word ‘no’ kept coming to mind and the reasons why.

Here is my main reason: my mind would be learning about and filling up with info about diseases, recovery issues, medical terminology etc., that I would have to learn.  When I brought up that I would probably get emotional with what patients were going through,  one of the owners even said he had a hard time with that. He couldn’t shut off all of the info when he got home and even talked with his dr. about it.  They both said you develop a kind of hardness and acquire a ‘gallows humor’ with the job. Well, *ells bells, that’s NOT something I want in my life. I’ve heard before since I was young, you have to cut back your feelings with nursing or you would be overwhelmed. Well, it is something you’d have to certainly do with this job.

They are all about quality patient care, and their company has 4.5 out of 5 star ratings.

When I got home and heard the birds singing I felt such a relief. I decided to call them and tell them my decision so that they wouldn’t have to keep me on their mind, (if they were considering me anyway, I’ll never know). I called my dear sis-in-law first and told her as she had asked me to when we talked on the phone last night, then called the office. They were in a meeting, (with another interviewee?), so I left my name and # and had to do do some more waiting. About 45-60 minutes later I got the call and told my decision. We thanked each other for the time spent together this morning, and that was that. Phew!

I could have done the job, I just didn’t want to. It wasn’t the right one for me.

After some lunch, I laid down for a nap, and while laying there I was thinking of my decision and this verse popped into mind and with that I will close this post.



Finally, brethren,

whatsoever things are true,

whatsoever things are honest,

whatsoever things are just,

whatsoever things are pure,

whatsoever things are lovely,

whatsoever things are of good report;

if there be any virtue,

and if there be any praise,

think on these things.

Phil. 4:8 KJV




Rebecca said...

Well, you affirmed something you may have already known about yourself. I'm sure you're relieved to have put this particular issue to rest. ♥

Ruth Hiebert said...

I have no doubt in my mind that you could have done this job and done it well,but I also believe that God gave you total peace of mind to turn it down.I know that you will be happy with that decision,if it is from God,and I believe it is.
Hugs, Ruth

Maggie44 said...

Hello Rainey, I awoke this morning (Australian time) to your news. It was good that you were able to make up your mind so quickly after the interview. It has to 'feel' right to be right for you. I have a nursing background and can relate to what they told you about becoming hardened to the job but having lost your hubby it was still going to be emotionally difficult in many ways. Sending you gentle hugs from the first day of Spring, down under.
With love, Gillian xxx

Carol- Beads and Birds said...

Well, just because you need and want a job does not mean that this was the job for you. You KNOW this will all work out.
xx, Carol

Deb @ Frugal Little Bungalow said...

A wise decision once you found out what was involved emotionally :)

Jane said...

Guess you figured it out. I'm glad you are at peace with your decision.


Morning's Minion said...

There are times that demand we must be in a situation that feels quite wrong--I'm glad you had the option to gracefully withdraw when this job was so obviously not going to be good for you.

Betsy Adams said...

I am positive you could have done that job ---but somehow (with God's help), you realized that it would not be the job for you. Glad you have found peace with your decision... God Bless You...


gld said...

Good for you for knowing your own mind. That would not have been a job for me either.

I feel confident something will come along just right.

Relax now and enjoy the day.

Debbie Harris said...

Reading your words of peace in your decision are praise worthy, sweet lady.
When you can make that decision on your own and so quickly, you just know the Spirit was directing through it all.
How beautiful that Philippians 4:8 rested upon your mind and heart as you laid your self down for a nap.
This was a pleasure to read, Lorraine.
My thoughts are with you in love~~

Jean Campbell said...

Love the Zebra Longwing. We seldom see those here any more.

Now that your decision is made, I won't have to tell you how I handled being a Hospice nurse.

I will tell you that as a student, I agonized over having to dissect a dead cat or a frog. When class time came, I was so caught up in identifying the various organs, I forgot about 'Ewwww! A dead animal."

Another opportunity will come along. Be comfortable in your decision.

Susan said...

Glad that it is settled and that you had a clear and definite feeling about it. I do believe that would not be for me either. I always feel that things have a way of working out - no need to worry! Take care, Lorraine.

Buttons Thoughts said...

I like your poem. I could not do those jobs either it is hard for me to be hard to what others are going through. HUGS B

~ Dixie said...

Lovely poem.
Follow your heart comes to mind. It's always difficult to make such decisions, but no one knows better than you what's the best for you, and that's a relief in itself.
Bet of luck...something will come along that feels right for you.

Nancy J said...

Your own heart told you what would be the right decision, well done to phone and let them know, A relief, and if you now have any doubts, think of what one day would involve, and you'll be so sure. Wonderful, even if the pocket will not benefit to the same, your delightful Plum Cottage and your plants and roses, and all your hearts will be the ones to delight in your full time job, that doesn't need fancy clothes, decisions, or travel each day. Hugs from NZ.

Jeri Landers said...

You will know if the right job comes along. I can understand not wanting to take a job that hardens you: it takes a particular personality to leave your feelings at the door. You can still have structure in your life, even as an artisan. Just schedule yourself everyday to work for a number of hours, and be a strict boss. It is how I structure my working at home and it works well as you get into a routine.
The beaded flower piece in the post below is such a beautiful composition.
I'm hoping you are not in the path of the storm that is heading for Fla.?.

Melanie said...

I'm glad that you went through the interview and that you knew immediately that the job wasn't for you. You wouldn't have known if you hadn't tried. Blessings to you, dear Rainey!

Gardener on Sherlock Street said...

I had an interview once where I left, called back and said no thank you. Gotta trust your gut. No good if you wouldn't be happy. Every one has different talents. I appreciate the work people do in fields I couldn't handle. Be grateful for the chance to talk to them and find out and keep looking!
Be safe with the storm headed to FL!!!


Cathy @ My 1929 Charmer said...

You know when I read you article before the interview I had a gut feeling his wasn't right for you at this time of your life. I feel a sense of relief that you told them know. Hopefully something that feel right for you will come along soon...and part-time?

BeachGypsy said...

I am so so so relieved for you that the issue is settled, the decision made, and THAT YOU HAVE PEACE ABOUT IT---that's the most important part, right? happy for you. God will provide for you, He always has.

Julie said...

I have done this same thing about 3 times over my life! It's funny tho, it was the opposite for me. I am a nurse, and each time I called potential employers back to NOT consider me, it was for non-nursing jobs!!! LOLOL. I think I got a bit scared for many different reasons! I surely can understand your feelings tho!!! It was for the best if you were feeling the way you were. For sure. Now you can breathe again!!!! xoxo...Julie

Thistle Cove Farm said...

Wise woman, Rainey, to know this position isn't right for you. When Dave was in treatment, it was not lost on me the hardness and lack of compassion most medical folks have. They have to or they'd fall apart daily. Let's face it: sick and dying people will always be with us and, sometimes, are us. I've told so many people, "Do NOT go to the hospital, maybe even the doctor's alone; always take someone with you." The things the doc wanted to do to Dave were unbelievable and he would have, had I not told him, "I've got Power of Attorney; you do "this" and I will own your grandchildren." Dealing with medicos brought out the Mean Mama Bear in me and I would have seriously hurt someone who hurt Dave.

Traditional Simplicity said...

Hugs to you! I can't tell you how much I appreciate your post. What spoke to me was you listened to your heart, to that place where God speaks to us. You responded rather than reacted. Your choice to keep the peace in your heart and life is commendable.

And what a beautiful verse the Lord gave you to meditate on! That is one of my favorites!

You are inspiring me to listen to my heart and be attentive to what I let into my life. Thank you.


Darcie said...

I can just simply say...LOVE YOU. When that right thing comes will know. You have to follow your heart in those situations.

Darla said...

Catching up on your posts. It sounds like your decision was the absolutely right one. I had a 35 year career in health care and while there were struggles there were also blessings. I think people are either cut out for that kind of work or not. If you would be uncomfortable it is best not to be in the situation. Hoping something perfect for you comes along.

Summer said...

Sounds like you have made the right decision☺ All the best! Hugs ♥

L. D. said...

We do reach a certain time in our lives where we know what we can do or want to do. Your choice made a lot of sense.

Junkchiccottage said...

Glad to see you are staying true to your own heart. I was a nurse for many years in oncology and people would often ask me how I could stand to be in a profession that dealt with so much sadness and pain. I said not everyone is cut out to do this job. I feel if I had to be fighting for my life or losing the battle with cancer I would want my caregiver to be kind, loving, emotional and in this with me. So it does take a lot to deal with health care issues. The most important thing is that you knew this was not the right place for you. Something else will come into your path and you will know it is the right place. At least this opened the door for you to feel like you could enter back into the work force. Now it is just finding the right opportunity.

Jessica Jarrell said...

It sounds like you made the right decision FlowerLady. I hope another job will come along that will be a better fit for you! 😀

Deborah Montgomery said...

I'm glad I scrolled back here to see what I'd missed. Good for you for listening to the Lord and your own quiet heart to know what was right to do. That is WISDOM right there! I'm happy for you. Would love to see your etsy shop do well; you make such exquisite designs! Blessings to you, Deborah