It’s over

I am so glad that the interview is over!  Thank you all again for your prayers and encouraging words. It went smoothly, both gentlemen were nice and we had an hour of questions and answers and talking. When I got in the elevator to leave, my thought was ‘no’, and all the way home the word ‘no’ kept coming to mind and the reasons why.

Here is my main reason: my mind would be learning about and filling up with info about diseases, recovery issues, medical terminology etc., that I would have to learn.  When I brought up that I would probably get emotional with what patients were going through,  one of the owners even said he had a hard time with that. He couldn’t shut off all of the info when he got home and even talked with his dr. about it.  They both said you develop a kind of hardness and acquire a ‘gallows humor’ with the job. Well, *ells bells, that’s NOT something I want in my life. I’ve heard before since I was young, you have to cut back your feelings with nursing or you would be overwhelmed. Well, it is something you’d have to certainly do with this job.

They are all about quality patient care, and their company has 4.5 out of 5 star ratings.

When I got home and heard the birds singing I felt such a relief. I decided to call them and tell them my decision so that they wouldn’t have to keep me on their mind, (if they were considering me anyway, I’ll never know). I called my dear sis-in-law first and told her as she had asked me to when we talked on the phone last night, then called the office. They were in a meeting, (with another interviewee?), so I left my name and # and had to do do some more waiting. About 45-60 minutes later I got the call and told my decision. We thanked each other for the time spent together this morning, and that was that. Phew!

I could have done the job, I just didn’t want to. It wasn’t the right one for me.

After some lunch, I laid down for a nap, and while laying there I was thinking of my decision and this verse popped into mind and with that I will close this post.

FlowerLady

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Finally, brethren,

whatsoever things are true,

whatsoever things are honest,

whatsoever things are just,

whatsoever things are pure,

whatsoever things are lovely,

whatsoever things are of good report;

if there be any virtue,

and if there be any praise,

think on these things.

Phil. 4:8 KJV

 

Waiting in limbo

 

Good morning Folks ~ Here it is Tuesday morning, and we’ve not had the stormy weather that was predicted from this tropical system. We’ve hardly had any rain. Yesterday was a tad cooler, but I stayed indoors, as I’m sort of ‘in limbo’ ~ “a situation characterised by uncertainty, as when waiting for a decision to be made.”

Tomorrow morning is my interview. I’m somewhat calm. I’ll be glad when it’s over and I then know which way my life will be going for awhile. Either working full time, or I’ll get proper paperwork done for my Etsy shop and keep creating pieces for it.

Here’s the latest heart that I am working on.

The skies have been different and pretty the past couple of mornings.

This was Sunday morning. I just love this ‘sliver of silver’. When I thought of this for the title of picture yesterday, I thought oh my gosh, an anagram. This was looking east.

This was looking in the other direction, south. I love the colors and the tree silhouettes.

This was taken yesterday morning, looking east, a whole different color scheme.

I was going to mow yesterday morning, but it rained. Thought about doing it today too, but its already lightly rained and is supposed to rain more. So, it will be another indoor day, ‘waiting in limbo’.

Last Saturday morning I went out with my two pole cutters, one with a tree saw, and one with clippers, to cut overhanging limbs that were touching the roof of the house, and then limbs on the workshop. It’s a good thing those limbs weren’t any higher, because I was at the end of my pole length. I always say thanks to God for being able to and getting a project done. Such a relief and an accomplishment for me.

Below are photos of two different types of pink hibiscus.

I’m looking forward to knowing one way or the other which way my life will go after tomorrow’s interview. One of my commenters said “a job will add structure to your life”.  That is for sure, something I’ve really lacked since first losing my husband 3 3/4 years ago, and after losing my job 16 months ago. I’ve been more or less lethargic.

I thank you all for your prayers and your words of encouragement. They mean a lot to me, more than words can express.

Enjoy your week, looking for the beauty, joy and goodness in each new day.

FlowerLady

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Every day is an opportunity

to make a new happy ending.

Author Unknown

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Life is a great big canvas,

and you should throw all the paint on it you can.

Danny Kaye

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To live remains an art which everyone must learn,

and which no one can teach.

Havelock Ellis

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Life was meant to be lived,

and curiosity must be kept alive.

One must never,

for whatever reason,

turn his back on life.

Eleanor Roosevelt

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Today,

fill your cup of life

with sunshine and laughter.

Dodinsky

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The world itself is but a series of footnotes

to a vast unfinished masterpiece.

Vladimir Nabokov

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Even if you make a mistake,

make it part of the dance and move on.

a dance saying

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You don't want to get to the end of life's journey

and discover you never left the interstate.

Robert Brault

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Be glad of life because

it gives you the chance to love

and to work and to play

and to look up at the stars.

Henry Van Dyke

More ‘musings’

Hi Folks ~ Some have asked if I’m up to this job, especially full time, at my age, (which is 67 years young). Well, I won’t know until I do it. There’s a possibility that I could work 9:30-4:00 instead of 8:30-5:00. That would certainly work better for me. I will mostly be sitting on my behind, answering the phone, typing and in the computer and filing. The commute to work is a nice one, about 10 miles from home, less than 30 minutes away.

I will be taught the computer program part by one of the owners of the shop. It will be a learning curve. It will stimulate my mind, it will be good for getting me out of my ‘stay-at-home-comfort-zone’, help with feeling lonely and grieving, and maybe I’ll be able to help others through my job too. Not to mention the income being an answer to prayer too.

In Etsy’s ‘opening a shop’ info, they do tell you to ‘don’t quit your day job’ before you know you can make a living off of it, if that’s what you need to do. Some do it as a hobby, me I would be doing it for income. I didn’t quit my day job, I lost it a year ago because my boss sold the building we were in and moved across the state. I’ve been praying about a job, have had a couple of things mentioned to me, but nothing has panned out until this possible position. Under my circumstances, I couldn’t say ‘no’, when I was first called by my friend to tell me about it. I have just been ‘scared’.

Since I don’t have my dear husband to talk to about things anymore, I am bouncing my thoughts off you all. I’m sure they are somewhat disjointed at times. Your feedback & your prayers are very encouraging to me. My husband would be encouraging me too if he was here because the pay with bennies are better than what I had at my last job for 17 years. If I don’t give this job a try, (if it is offered to me and not someone else), I will regret it, I know, and then all of the ‘what ifs’ and ‘regrets’ would bug me. I’m willing to learn new things and will trust Jesus/God to be my strength, just as He is now with my being at home. He is always with me. Am I nervous, heck yea. I was nervous when I started my last job too, but that eventually went away and the years marched on, until here I am now.

My dear sis-in-law Sue has been a big help with talking about this, pros and cons. She’s encouraging me and praying too. Here’s a line she wrote today,"if you are suppose to have this job, it is a done deal with God. No sense to worry at all." Amen.

So, I’ve got a week to try to wait patiently and not stress over the interview. Just be myself. (I may just finish painting the bathroom.) They are a small office, 5-6 people, Key West style, so a laid-back atmosphere, which I love. I already dress the part pretty much. This morning I went to GoodWill because it is Sr. Citizen’s day, to see if I could find some colorful tops and maybe a pair or two of slacks. Well, I did, 5 tops and 1 pr. of slacks. The tops cost me $2.36 each the slacks were $3.22, they are sort of stretchy/skinny. Yay, me. Fabrics are silk, cotton, rayon and blends.

Oh yeah, my ‘prize’ for the day was a beautiful, hand crocheted table cloth, my cost as a sr. was $3.75. I’ll take some close-up shots later. Looking at other shots I took of this, I realized I had it on upside down, so that the backside is showing.  The work is beautiful, and I crochet so I know that this took lots of hours in the creation of it. It’s a combination of filet crochet and medallions.

We are in for some ‘tropical storm’ weather Sunday. Wind and rain! I’m hoping and praying it stays a tropical storm and doesn’t turn into a hurricane.  The last hurricane we had was in Oct. 2005 and that was Wilma. The eye went right over us and the whole storm was very scary! Our little 50’s cottage survived and we were thankful.  We did have to do some repair on a storage shed and that was kind of depressing, but DH did a great job. We had lots of clean up to do too from downed tree debris.

Well, that’s it. Just putting more thoughts out to you. I do thank you for reading, and your kind and encouraging comments.

Enjoy the rest of your week ~ FlowerLady

 

Oh dear… eating crow?

 

“If I do hear from them, I’ll have to deal with it then.” ~ A line from my last post. Well, a few hours after I posted this morning, I laid down for a nap after lunch, and the phone rang. I let the machine answer, then when I heard who it was I got up. I replayed the message and it was ‘the call’ about ‘the job’. I gathered my wits about me, drank some water then called back. We had a very nice chat and I found out what all the job entailed, the pay and bennies, and I have an interview next Wed. morning. WOW!

Lesson learned, don’t speak/post too quickly. I should have known that as soon as I’d hit that publish button something would happen, and it did. In reality, I’ve been somewhat afraid because this job is out of my comfort zone, but maybe this is just what I need at this time in my life. Being out with others, and helping others will help me with grieving and loneliness. I will have an income again, and in my spare time, I can still create my hearts. I can still live my simple life, but I won’t have to stress over income.

So, keep praying and I’ll let you know what happens next week after my interview and I know something for certain. It will be a learning curve for me. I’m getting excited for the opportunity to learn new things and to grow as a person. They are talking with a few others also. Like I said before, if it’s meant to be, it will be.

The verse at the end of my earlier post still applies.

That’s it for now, I just had to update.

FlowerLady