Dear Folks ~ Have I ever been surprised and blessed because of a ‘little birdie’ who flew around blogland saying I needed some cheering up this December. Oh my goodness, the kindness of others has brought on some ‘happy tears’, smiles and a heart filled with thanksgiving. Ladies I don’t know and some I do know, have most definitely cheered my heart. Sweet cards and notes of encouragement, gift cards, money and baked goods. I am humbled and blown away at the same time.
For some reason this 6th December since my dear husband went to be with Jesus has been rough. Partly, I think it has to do with I’m getting older, and having to deal with everything here at Plum Cottage by myself, that the two of us always handled as a team, a team that worked wonderfully well together. I have to admit that last evening, after a nice Christmas day of laughter and great food with friends, I laid in bed talking to Jesus. Admitting to him how I felt like ‘screaming’ (this is not how I am normally, but those are the feelings that came out last night), I was loudly screaming in my heart and mind because I am not as strong as I’d like to be and I miss my husband. I talked with Jesus about these true feelings and asked for strength and patience as I live each day that I am blessed with. I am human and I do sometimes get ‘down’, and that’s when I cry out to Jesus to be my strength. I want to be of good courage and not afraid, to keep focused on Him, to do what I can with the physical strength and mental know how that I have.
I have so much to be thankful for, a little house that is paid for, my van is paid for, I’ve food to eat, a comfortable bed, clean water, electricity, my 4 feline girls, gardens full of flowers and weeds. Birds, bees and butterflies that grace my gardens with their presence. On my husband’s birthday I saw a hummingbird two different times sipping nectar from two different flower types. To me that was a little happy blessing. Also, I’m thankful that I’m still able to get out and physically do things. I did lose my job that I’d had for 17 years, (3 years after losing my husband, as my boss sold the business and moved across the state) and I’ve not found other work yet, part-time, to supplement my ss check, but, this is all part of God’s plan for my life. He knows my needs and desires. He blesses me in many ways, and right now at this time, He has blessed me with kindness from others.
I am so looking forward to 2019. I look forward to clearing up the property here at Plum Cottage, to make this little place more of a sanctuary, to living even more simply that I already do and to keep trusting in Jesus to take care of me.
Life is an adventure. We can choose which way we want to live it, joyfully and peacefully or gloomily and not at peace. We learn and we grow through life’s experiences. As I am typing this, another little song came to mind. Here are the words:
They that wait upon the Lord,
Shall renew their strength,
They shall mount up with wings as eagles
They shall run and not be weary,
They shall walk and not faint.
Teach me Lord, teach me Lord, to wait.
Amen.
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Thank you all who have visited here since I started this blog in 2008. Your words of encouragement, your comments, prayers, all that you are and share, has been a blessing in my life. May we have many more years together.
May we all be blessed and may we bless others in 2019.
FlowerLady