Thursday, January 3, 2013

I am thankful

This morning I called the SS office and have a phone appt. for the 31st with an agent.

I then got into DH’s computer and had to find the database for our finances, and finally found it, hurray. That way I could see what our expenses were for 2011, 2012’s did not get entered in the database since August. I wanted to know what I had to work with to pay bills.

Then I called a bill collector’s office for one bill that I received and I told her Mark had passed away on the 9th. She offered her condolences and asked me to fax her a copy of Mark’s death certificate, and then she will write off the bill because we are uninsured.  Tears are streaming down my cheeks and I’m sobbing in thanksgiving.

This is such a rough, awful, horrible time, and I’m no saint, I am so weak, but my faith is in God, it’s not perfect, but He is perfecting me. He will supply all of my needs. He will be my Peace and Strength.

Anyway, that’s the latest for this morning. I don’t have a FAX machine here, so will do it from work.

Count your blessings and be thankful.

FlowerLady Lorraine


Balisha said...

I wish I was there to give you a hug. As my husband says, "Keep looking UP"

Jen @ Muddy Boot Dreams said...

Lorraine, I am reaching out and giving you a virtual hug for so many reasons....a great big one.

What a wonderful thing for that woman to do for you...

Stay strong, believe, you will find a path shows up before you, right now it's just a bit overgrown.

Hugs to you my friend.


Rebecca said...

I can't imagine. I can't imagine! (And I'm no saint either. We are weak but He is STRONG. I am imperfect, but He is PERFECT!

Nancy J said...

Keep strong, believe, DH will know it is hard, and send all he can to help you.Tears are healing, let them fall. Generosity from unexpected places, and people, accept it all as it happens, you deserve so much. Greetings from Jean

Sandy said...

My God shall supply all your need, Lorraine...according to His riches in glory...which are boundless!!
Praise God for His favor!!
Love & Prayers~

Ruth's Photo Blog said...

I see that you are beginning to run into God's Angels in work clothes. GREAT!!! I have had so many of those Angles cross my path over the last two years.You WILL make it and I am here for you if you want to talk,via email.

Sandra said...

I so wish I could give you a hug right now. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this :(

It breaks my heart.

ChrisC said...

Know you are loved.
Tho we may not know you in person,know we all love you and wish you strength.
Take it one day at a time.Baby steps,girlfriend.Baby steps.
Know you can come to any of us when you need us.

~Gardener on Sherlock Street said...

Sounds like little blessing are finding you.

Heather said...

I know it seems so daunting, so unbearable, but hold true in your beliefs and you will be strong... it is only words, and it seems like you are the only one going through it, but please believe it will get better and you will make it through... I know I have only recently met you, but I feel your pain and wish I could do more for you... just know that all your blogging friends are hurting along with you and wishing for peace and strength to fill your heart! Hugs!

Lynn said...

I am counting my blessings, Lorraine. One of them is you.

Karen said...

Oh, thank goodness about the bill. I'm praying for you, Rainey, sending hugs and good wishes.

Rose ~ from Oz said...

I quite accidentally stumbled across your lovely blogs while googling something on tropical plants and was quite taken back to read your post, I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I lost my beloved 9 years ago and only wrote a tribute on my blog for him quite recently and so it, and all the memories are quite fresh all over again. I felt compelled to leave a few words of encouragement for you dear lady.

Anonymous said...

Dearest Lorraine, I'm sad at all the things you have to deal with right now, but glad you found some relief from the debt.

Sorry I haven't been around lately.. please know that you remain in my thoughts and prayers.

Take care, (hugs)

Kit said...

You are not weak at all! You are doing wonderfully. You will have up and down days and you will find so many great souls who will help you along. You can do this. Love you friend, Kit


Sending hugs. I hope know how much all of us care for you. Take care sweetie.

One Woman's Journey - a journal being written from Woodhaven - her cottage in the woods. said...

Striking out on my own over 30 years ago with 4 children. A husband that had thrown us into bankruptcy - I understand much you share.
If it were not for constant prayer and my faith in God
I could not have made it as there have been so many ups and downs and challenges in my life.
Love from a cottage in the woodas.