Tuesday, September 6, 2016

A thank you, an apology, and moving forward

Good morning Folks ~ Here it is Tuesday already, September, and fall is coming, sooner or later, depending on where one lives.

I want to thank you all for your kind and encouraging comments.

I want to apologize to those in the medical establishment whose feelings might have been rankled or hurt by my comments in my last post about becoming hardened. I know there are kind, loving  and wonderful people out there in this field taking care of others as best they can. It’s not cut out for everyone and we all do appreciate tender care in that profession.

I have really felt at peace since making my decision a week ago tomorrow. Life goes on and I am taking life one day at a time.

Yesterday morning I got up late, and by the time I thought about working outside it really was too late. It was miserable out so I just took a photo from inside my bedroom looking out into part of my main garden. There’s a path there, it’s just not seen because of all of the weeds and overgrowth. Today I have a lunch date with two friends and did not want to wear myself out in the garden getting started on taking care of the paths, so here I am. I’ll take another picture afterwards. What a mess. Dealing with plantar fascitis has also slowed me down. I’m looking forward to cooler weather, and my feet are feeling better, so in time this will get done. Just one of the many outdoor projects that need doing.

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Oh how I miss my dear husband. For motivation, for us working together as a team, for love and encouragement, given and received, for so many different reasons. He’s in a much better place though, cheering me on in my walk of faith and that makes me smile and gives me peace. I can just hear and picture him cheering me on. One day we will be reunited. I had a nice quick dream about him the other night. He had given me a gift, wrapped in brown craft paper and had written a note using a black magic marker, saying he loved me still. I then woke up, so I didn’t get to see what the gift was, but reading that he ‘loved me still’ was the gift, in my mind and I woke up with a smile on my face, and joy in my heart. Our 47th anniversary is the day after tomorrow.  I am thankful for the love we shared together in our 43 years of marriage.

I finished the beaded heart I was working on. Seed and bugle beads, and fresh water pearls. I made the crocheted border also.

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The next heart I started by tracing pattern onto tissue paper, pinning it to the fabric, then doing an outline stitch through the tissue paper.

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Then came peeling the paper away from stitching.

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Next, the work I’ve done so far, with gold edging. I’m just winging it, not set way of doing this. Smile

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Ok, that’s it from Plum Cottage. I need to get up out of my chair and get going for the day. May you all have a great week.

FlowerLady

‘Love is Forever’

22 comments:

Noelle Johnson said...

Hello Lorraine,

My prayers are with you that you will be at peace with your decision about your decision to not move forward with the job. God has the right job or occupation for you and will reveal it to you when the time is right :-)

Best,
Noelle

Nancy J said...

I am so happy that you are happy with your decision. And your apology, I think all those in that field must sometimes feel that they cannot begin to care too much. Life gets difficult, and for each of us, trying to find a balance is puzzling. For me, I ignore the "bad stuff" on TV and the internet, look away, do not read it,and concentrate on the good things every day. This morning, I am thankful for the fire, a coffee, and a quiet time to read blogs and do emails. Take care up there, did the bad weather come near you? hugs from NZ.XX p.s.Thanks so much for your lovely words, I haven't managed to answer each one yet, slowly getting better.

Terra Hangen said...

I pray God has a better job in mind for you, that is often His plan.

June said...

Oh my dear, your beaded heart is just beautiful!!!! and so is the one that beats in your chest!!!! You made me cry when I read about the dream and how the words he wrote were the gift. I am still getting goosebumps while even writing this. This truly fed me today and I thank you so much for this sweet post.
I am really sorry that your feet are hurting. I have some days that I come in from the garden and just totally wilt, so I can only imagine how it feels when your feet hurt.
Thank you Lorraine, for your sweet comment on my last post. I appreciate sweet friends who know what what it's like to go through hard times and give comfort.
sending hugs your way...

Ruth Hiebert said...

Your needlework is exquisite and so beautiful.

Jane said...

Caregivers are very special selfless people. I know I could never do it. Whatever your reason for not wanting the job, I'm glad you have accepted it.

Hugs
Jane

Mountain Mama said...

I missed your last post, so I went back to see what happened with the interview - good for you, you are an amazing strong woman and you knew it wasn't the right thing for you! I'm so proud of you, and no doubt you could have aced that job if you had it....if you wanted it! Hugs to you, Lorraine - you are an inspiration!

Carol- Beads and Birds said...

I'm glad that the decision and stressing over that job decision is behind you. Life plays tricks on us. All you can do now is wait for the next one!

We are having unusual weather for the first of September. Very hot and VERY humid. It's keeping me inside. And the days are flying by.
Be well Lorraine and happy.
Much love
Carol

Julie said...

Your hearts are just so gorgeous!!!

Celestina Marie said...

Hi Rainey, Decisions are not always easy, but such a load off when they are made and you know it feels right. Love your beautiful heart and all the stunning details. Have a beautiful week and Happy September! xo

Debbie Harris said...

Another stunning heart, sweet lady.
Being a care giver isn't for everyone but praise the Lord for those who look to the needs of others in the medical field. Being a care giver myself I know that it can be hard at times but quite rewarding.
I'm happy to hear that you are at peace with your decision.
What a precious dream you had.

Enjoy your beautiful day~~

Betsy Adams said...

Bless your heart... I'm glad you feel at peace about the job decision. I KNOW (since I worked in a church profession for 25 years) that you HAVE to get a little hard. Otherwise, all of the needs out there (some good--some not so good) would eat you alive... You'd want to fix everything and everyone... Just impossible. We did what we could to help --but I had to learn to walk away and realize that I couldn't do it all...

My love and prayers are with you all of the time --but especially this week...

Love your needlework... SO much detail and so beautifully done..

Hugs,
Betsy

SimplySingleSenior said...

Your dream about the note from your husband is so special! Glad you are feeling good about your decision and moving forward.

Melanie said...

Well, here it is Thursday so it's your anniversary. A bittersweet day for you, so sending you an extra hug and prayers for good memories and comforts. I love the dream you had of your husband giving you that gift and it saying he loved you still. Of course he does - love never ends.

Have you looked up stretches for your plantar facsciitis? Mine comes and goes but I find if I do the special stretches, it really helps.

Cathy @ My 1929 Charmer said...

If your feeling at peace that means you made the right decision. Hugs on having and anniversary without your love...but in your heart you both are still together. Hope your plantar facsitiis heals quickly but mine did take awhile...

Rebecca said...

Hope the week has unfolded beautifully for you (I have NO idea where it has gone)! Time seems to rush by for me these days.

Praying you are continue to walk in peace as you "move forward". ♥

Jessica Jarrell said...

I'm always so happy when I've dreamed of loved ones. My parents may not be dead, but I don't get to see them often. It's almost like I got to see them again when I have a dream about them. Your beaded hearts are so lovely! So much detail! They really are gorgeous.

Have a great weekend FlowerLady! 😀

Katie Mansfield said...

Your embroidery work is beautiful. Prayers for you, Lorraine.

Consider It All Joy said...

Hi Rainey, Well, I've been away and life continues on. Looks like you've had quite a bit of 'life' happening around you as well. Though I may not stop by as often as I'd like, my prayers are with you. I love the pieces you are working on for reopening your etsy shop! You are a talented needle worker! Praying you have a blessed rest of your weekend. Cindy xo

Leslie Kimel said...

Your new heart is so beautiful--the design is so graceful. I love everything about it!

M.K. said...

Hi, dear FL. I'm catching up on reading, so have just now read about your adventures into job-hunting! If you feel peace now, that indicates to me that the job was NOT for you. And jumping straight into full-time, in-office work, after the break you've had, would be really stressful, I think. I do think a part-time job would be great for you. That's what I'm doing now (3-6 each afternoon, but boy is it taxing!), and even at that, I find myself always second-guessing and wishing I could quit and stay home. It's a really, really hard decision once you are to a "certain age." :)

My Journey To Mindfulness said...

Love your heart project
you are gifted with talent.