First, let me go heat up some water for a cup of ginger tea, I’ll be right back. Ok, water is heating, and I’m munching on a couple of chocolate chip cookies.
Here’s something that has been weighing on my mind lately:
I am having a problem with fleas in the barn where three of my feline girls have lived for years. It keeps them off the street and away from feral cats. They like it in there and have their routes for climbing and leaping. We visit them and DH would do some work in there too. For years I have fed the girls Brewer’s yeast and that has kept the fleas at bay. DH left this planet Dec. 2012, and the fleas started moving in sometime last year.
I’ve had some fleas in the house too, but am getting a handle on it, as it is a smaller space.
I am using diatomaceous earth and vacuuming. I don’t want to use chemicals as I’ve read some bad stuff about them, bombs etc. leaving poison every where, although, I did break down and buy advantageII and gave it to the barn girls once and to Miss Tork twice. Both times I’ve noticed she’s really lethargic for days after the dose has been given, basically staying in one spot. This morning she threw up after eating some breakfast. I am too the point where I am thinking of giving them all away. But who do you give them too. Shelters are filled to capacity with critters. I am beside myself with worry about this on top of still grieving, because I miss Mark every single day. I don’t know what to do, and I am all by myself. I love my girls and need help.
I decided to do some laundry this morning as it was piling up, and as I was hanging up clothes the tears started to fall in earnest, then I pulled on the clothesline pipe to turn it around and it broke in three places, it’s one of those twirly gig deals. That really did it and I began sobbing. I got the clothes back off the lines, came inside still sobbing and called a widow friend and she prayed with me right on the phone, and I felt a little better. I then decided ok, I’ll just go to HD and buy a new ‘solar dryer’. I checked and we bought this one a little over 4 years ago and it is only cheap aluminum after all. So, I changed my clothes and headed out the door. When I was walking to the van, I noticed it listing to one side and OH NO, a FLAT tire, front drivers side. I laughed right out loud at first, and said well that takes care of that. Then I came back in and the tears started again. I called my boss and asked to talk to the restorer if he was there, because he lives near me and maybe he could come help. I talked to the restorer and he said not to worry they would figure something out. My boss called a little while later and told me a mobile auto repair truck would be out in about an hour and the bill was taken care of. I thanked him with tears streaming down my face.
The guys did show up did a good, quick job and left. I will go to SAM’s club tomorrow morning with warranty in hand to see about getting a new tire. Sheesh!
My stomach is upset to say the least, pressure behind my eyes from so much crying, and then I hear the mail truck, and what do I see in the box, the ‘water bill’. I was thinking ok, what am I going to have a $3000. water bill. No, it wasn’t that high, but it was high again, so there is still a leak somewhere. I need to see about disconnecting that reverse osmosis system and see if that’s the problem. I called my B-I-L and left a message. I know he’s going to be ‘thrilled’ to hear from me again. Bless his heart. He and his wife are flying to NYC for a belated anniversary trip for a few days, leaving Thurs.
I didn’t cry over the bill, I probably would have though if it was $3000.
During this mini crisis, I came across the verse ~ Give thanks in all things ~ oh my. It isn’t easy, but it is doable. Being thankful does somehow make you feel better and lighten things up a bit. This is just another testing of my faith, to make me a stronger FlowerLady.
So, I would appreciate your prayers about all of this. Sometimes I get zapped with feelings of ‘what’s the use’ of doing anything. This grieving is really rough on body, mind and spirit. But, with God, I can and will make it.
Now let’s have some flower ‘candy’.
Azaleas ~ three different colors, all pretty.
Hibiscus with plumbago in the background, with morning sunlight.
Callisia fragrans just starting to bloom along the driveway.
They have such a delicate sweet scent.
A bloom of the Cocktail rose, past it’s prime.
This is my gift of Rose de Rescht, putting out lots of new growth.
I took those lace curtains I bought for $3 the other day and hung them in the three doors. I love the light they let in, and how much bigger the spaces feel using them.
I really like them in my little space where I create and blog from.
Well, today is on the wane and tomorrow is another day.
That reminds me of a couple of things in my online devotionals I got this morning in my email.
God is in every tomorrow,
Therefore I live for today,
Certain of finding at sunrise,
Guidance and strength for the way;
Power for each moment of weakness,
Hope for each moment of pain,
Comfort for every sorrow,
Sunshine and joy after rain.
Here’s another piece from one of them.
Our emotions are governed in large measure by what we consider — what we dwell on with our minds. For example, Jesus told us to overcome the emotion of anxiety by what we consider: “Consider the ravens . . . Consider the lilies” (Luke 12:24, 27).
The mind is the window of the heart.
If we let our minds constantly dwell on the dark,
the heart will feel dark.
But if we open the window of our mind to the light,
the heart will feel the light.
So I will close with the following:
whatsoever things are true,
whatsoever things are honest,
whatsoever things are just,
whatsoever things are pure,
whatsoever things are lovely,
are of good report;
if there be any virtue,
and if there be any praise,
think on these things.
Love and hugs,