Friday, November 29, 2013

Computer problems

Hello everyone ~ I hope you all had a lovely Thanksgiving day. I had a fantastic dinner out with Mark's brother, his wife and daughter. Coming home to a quiet, empty house was almost too much to bear though. I said to my self I just wanted to die so that I wouldn't have to miss him anymore.  I don't really want to die, but any of you who have lost your spouse know what I am talking about. This was my first Thanksgiving without Mark. It felt strange not fixing Thanksgiving dinner like I normally do. I still feel out of sorts this morning. Keep me in your prayers during this holiday season.  Pray for others who have lost loved ones also.

I may not be on the computer much as I am having major problems with my computer at home.  I'm on my laptop, that I bring here to work. I have an external hard drive that Mark always backed up everything to but I don't know how to do that. Todd is going to show me how and until then, I'm not going to be on that computer as I'm afraid it's going to crash and I'll lose everything.  It is really acting weird.  All of this makes me miss Mark even more as he was my own personal computer geek.

Maybe it's time for a major break right now.  There are plenty of things around home I can to take care of. So, if you don't see much of me, you'll know why.

Have a wonderful holiday season.

Love and hugs ~ FlowerLady






13 comments:

Balisha said...

I hope your computer problems are solved soon. I'll miss your posts. Holidays are hard for those who have lost someone. I've lost so many and each holiday there are special memories that come to mind.We just have to get through them as best we can and still make new ones.
I hope your holidays are filled with peace and happiness.
Balisha

Nancy J said...

Oh Lorraine, hope the PC problems get sorted, back up is so important, and once you master it, easy to do every week,That way all photos and words saved safely. Take care, fond greetings from Jean.

lemonverbenalady said...

Hi dear FL,

Really love computers when they work and when they don't not so much! Glad you could have Thanksgiving dinner with family. The Herbal Husband and I are thinking of you and hoping you can think positively through the holidays! Love from both of us! xo

Ruth's Photo Blog said...

I do understand those feelings. I hope you are able to be with caring people and not just by yourself. Big hugs to you.

Rose ~ from Oz said...

My dearest Lorraine, I believe I'm qualified :/ to say I completely understand - everything you said actually.
Hope the computer bit is all sorted soon, have a break and we shall see you soon.
Much love
Rose

Bernie H said...

Hopefully getting out to do garden work will provide some solace as this time. It is hard to get through those first holiday celebrations. My lovely friend who lost her husband last year is going through exactly the same thing right now as it comes to the first anniversary of her husband's death. It's a tough time. You are both in my prayers right now.

Thistle Cove Farm said...

hi Lorraine, yesterday was quiet, stayed home and only talked to 3 people all day. vetted on an alpaca who might live after all...bless God. the pain of losing Dave is daily but it's getting easier.

Elizabeth Hart said...

Oh FlowerLady, I lost my Mom on Monday and although it's not my partner in life, she was my gardening partner and the tears have been endless. Thanksgiving just wasn't the same . . . .

denimflyz said...

I am having the same feelings, Lorraine, only mine are spending it with parents who are separate and I too, did not make dinner this time. D and I spent it first with my dad at the care center, then I took a plate from the care center kitchen to my mom. It was sad, tempers were elevated and it was stressful.
I am praying for God's gentle guidance and love to help during this time of the season. I do not do well during this time of year also.
Love and Hugs to you my friend

lil red hen said...

I'm so sorry you're alone during this season. I spend a lot of time alone when the farmer is out and about, but I know he will be back; that's the difference. As I age I think more about what it would be like to be alone; we depend on one another probably more than we realize. I admire all the work you do around your home. God bless you..

Terra said...

Oh Lorraine, bless your heart, that must be harsh going home to an empty house. How good you had Thanksgiving feast with family; I hope your friends are holding you close.

Rebecca said...

Oh, please don't stay away long! I can only imagine some of the sadness you feel at this time of the year. Please share your heart & hurts with me (us) here. I would do just about anything to ease your sadness, Lorraine - and I know I'm among many others who have grown to love you and be concerned about you.

Karen said...

Lorraine, I hope your computer problems aren't problems for long. I think of you every day, dear friend. I can only imagine how hard the holidays are without your beloved Mark. I'm glad you had an outing with your family.

You are loved, Rainey.