Good morning everyone ~ I hope your day today is a good one, and that your weekend is nice too. Our rain is becoming less and that’s a good thing. I need to wash and hang out laundry and mow, weed, trim, blah, blah, blah.
I’ve mentioned our ‘back 40’ a few times, and in reality it’s maybe an area of 20 feet by 30 feet if that. But, there is ‘stuff’ back there and the stuff has become covered. This fall/winter I will be working on, with help from others (I hope), clearing the ‘junk yard/back 40’ of the junk. It was one of the things my husband said to me in his last months here, “when I die, get rid of the junk”. We had started working on it, but weren’t allowed to finish the project together. A lot of what I need to clear out, will go to the scrap yard for $$.
Speaking from experience, when you become a widow, so many things seem overwhelming. I’ve handled a lot around here with and without the help of my dear husband, but now that he’s gone, I realize just how much we did together and depended on each other for help with various projects. This is a whole new way of living, and most definitely takes some getting used to. I am learning to just take each day as it comes, learning to go with the flow, learning to trust God more. Things I didn’t have to pay for before, I will have to pay for now. That right there is something to trust God for, meeting all of my needs.
I look forward to taking care of this place, having it easier to take care of with all the ‘junk’ gone. Mind you, I’ll be keeping some of the junk as there is some that is garden or art worthy. I just need to relax more, finding my groove and flow into it each day. I am thankful to have this place, a place filled with love, joy and so many projects worked on together.
Yesterday at work, I was taking care of a really nice customer and as we were talking I mentioned my husband having passed away in December. She gasped and said she was so sorry, then she asked “Can I give you a hug?” I said, “yes”. She gave me a good one and just held me and I thanked her. Her husband just had open heart surgery 3 weeks ago and we both were teary. I told her my husband was now with God and she said “he is there waiting for you” and I agreed and told her how he told me he’d be waiting on the rainbow bridge for me.
What I want to say is this, ladies, hug your widow friends. They don’t have a disease, widowhood is not catching. Hugs and gentle touches are something we greatly miss. I can’t even express in words what they do for a soul with a broken heart, who has lost their love, their best friend. Hugs are priceless, they are healing. I want to thank you all for your cyber hugs, as they too mean a lot to ‘FlowerLady’ who misses her DH so dang much. The widows group once a month has been a great source of hugs for all of us widows who attend.
I hope I don’t drive any of my followers away because I bring up my loss so often, but it’s a part of me now. It’s part of my every day life. I have the photo of DH waving to me sitting here on my desk in my creative space, and have another one on the desk in the bedroom. He is very much alive, just not on this plane. That photo gives me hope and encourages me to keep on. God is my continuing strength.
So, with that I will close this post.
Love and hugs from me to all of you ~ FlowerLady