Dear Friends ~ I am sitting here with tears streaming as I just can’t seem to stop them, then sobs burst forth from my heart and soul. For some reason the last two days and today already too, have been filled with my cries and prayers to God to help me get through this. There are no words to describe the pain and loss.
Others who have lost their spouses say it gets easier with time, and I am doing my best to take things one day at a time, moment by moment.
Scripture, comments and emails, kind words, songs, seeing something, all can make me weep. I have times during the day when I’m not a soggy mess, and those are good times. Times I am thankful for. Even when I’m feeling at my worst, I thank God for everything. He has blessed me with this life of mine. He knew me before I was even born, He knew that Mark and I would meet, fall in love and marry, He knew when it was time to take Mark home and He knows all that I am going through now with this horrible loss. He knows my needs better than I do, and He really IS my strength when I am weak, as without Him I would be a big fat zero, zilch, nothing.
I just wanted to let you all know that when you see courage and strength, it’s not me, it’s Someone BIGGER than me, carrying me every step of the way.
With writing this, my crying jag of the moment has ended, my heart feels somewhat lighter and I need to go get a load of laundry going, do some baking and enjoy the day.
Love and hugs to all of you ~ FlowerLady Lorraine
Pleasure is the flower that passes;
remembrance, the lasting perfume.
Jean de Boufflers